A not-so hidden agenda

An insight into the plans I had for March 11, 2015.

I found this while I was bored in psychology writing the other day. It made me laugh. I even it showed it to the kid that jumped into the partner assignment after I had already done majority (all) of it. LOL. So that's saying a lot. He found it interesting as well so I thought I'd share it on my blog. 

                                     

"Don't be dramatic." Such an excellent goal for myself (and anyone). The funny part is that I actually don't remember anything about this day. I love that it wasn't that I failed to follow up at the end of the day. I obviously thought about it because of the question mark I put next to it. I can just imagine myself evaluating myself before I went to sleep... "Was I?" haha.

Mission Poem

I wanted to share this poem I wrote at the end of my mission. I'm not sure why I love rhyming poems so much,  but I have written quite a few. This is probably one of my favorites because it is about one of my favorite topics. I hope you enjoy!

Friends and family of mine waiting for my return.

Hoping I'll be awake and not crash and burn.

I've loved my mission oh so much.

What it has done for me is a blessing and such.

I love the Lord; I love His Church.

I'm happy with what I've learned on an 18 month search.

Testimony grows as you apply and teach.

I'm so lucky to have taught so close to a beach.

Can't believe I'm leaving this lifestyle behind.

It has truly been a time, one of a kind.

I'm so grateful to have completed my calling.

I hope when I got home I won't feel like falling.

Who can guess how I'll feel, not I!

I don't want to think about all the goodbyes.

I know I'll go home to my loving siblings, mom, and dad.

But I know that the farewells here will still be sad.

Don't doubt I've absolutely loved my time serving here.

                                                     And I know even at home Heaven's help will still be near.

It'll be really different and that's okay. 

Go ahead and start calling me by name, Kristen Ray.

At least for a couple of years I'll get to keep my name.

After while I probably won't mind it to be the same.

The @REALDEALKRIZZLE is coming back.

Try not to notice all the things I lack.

You can rest assured it's for a love for the Lord,

Just maybe that TV and movies will make me bored.

I love to read God's word and that will never change.

But I am excited to get to see all my bestikins, like Lacy Lange.

I believe in God, I believe he has a plan.

Just of the world's priorities, I may not be a fan.

I've overcome personal weakness through diligence faith and love.

But I can't wait to hug my family, what a blessing from above.

I've missed birthdays, weddings, and the like.

But now I sure know how in a skirt to bike.

My brother's a lot taller; it's hard to comprehend.

But at least now I'm much better with money and know how to better spend.

My nephew's a chunk meister; my sister's in grad school.

For the last 18 months, I've worked on dignified language, not saying, "cool."

Well this is the end of my life on a mission full-time.

But my call to be a member missionary will be sublime.

To sum it all up, I was called to serve.

And now my life's about to take a big swerve!

#cominghome #missionlife #RM #almost #ETTE #trampolinemania #sleepyfordayzzz #naplife #cantwaittolayinmybed #seeyaintwo #dayz

Sitting in a meeting

Today I'm sitting in the meeting at church where the following article was read to all members of the church regarding the Supreme Court ruling.

But this post is not about that. AT ALL. Anymore.

Sometimes I get anxious as I sit in a meeting. I feel that very much right now. And not just because of the topic of this meeting.

A certain level of expectation exists as you sit in a meeting. To be engaged, to be interested, to follow social norm... to name just a few of those expectations. Lately I have been thinking about social norms a lot. Often times, a super awkward thought will come into my mind, "What if I walked to the front of the room when everyone was dead silent?" "What if I said this totally shocking comment to my friend right now?" Anyway, I never act on them, but it's just an interesting thought to think. Oh the possibilities that could happen...

I guess this post reveals that I wasn't paying much attention to the meeting. That is not due to my lack of care or concern, but more because I was afraid contention might arise and that whole scene would just make me feel even more uncomfortable than simply sitting in a meeting already does.

[This first blog post is always the hardest to start. First impressions... sigh.... That's why I just decided to do a post that wasn't quite up to par. It can only go up from here. ;)]